My Two Cent's Worth

So this weekend was absolutely wonderful.....Sure Ole Miss lost the football game - that kinda sucked....but at least they played better than anyone had expected....Events following the game were what made the weekend so good though. Went to the pharmacy tent, hung out with my cool pharmacy kid friends, then went to a party at the Links....never quite made it home, but that's okay....at least I didn't drive drunk......Anyway, going to bed soon.....out like a fat kid in dodgeball.....(or a fat kid in a spelling bee as someone once said - it makes absolutely no sense whatsoever - I think that is why he thought it was funny...maybe?? who knows)

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Sincerely Me - Better Than Ezra

Today was uneventful to say the least....No real good or bad things happened....wow, boring, huh? Randomly saw Brian again - kind of starting to bother me. I would just rather not see him at all. Not even driving by on the road - I would kind of like to forget that he is even here....But I don't have much control over that now do I? Oh well, as long as I don't run into him in one of those weird, forced conversational experiences. I don't have anything to say to him.....Anyway, this weekend is kinda gonna be chill for me....I've got some thinking to do, and I just need to relax and take it easy. I think I'm beginning to get sick, so lying around sounds great. Gilmore Girls - Season 4, here I come! Wow, I'm such a dork....I officially have nothing due next week besides some silly business letter, so I don't even have to study this weekend. That's a definite relief. I'll probably just hang around, go to the game, and chill with Josh and Sam....I need to sort alot of things out this weekend before they drive me insane. I think some hardcore praying action is in the works....I just feel so far away from everything that means the most to me right now, and I want to get close to it again....I wish it were as easy as it sounds, but sadly, it may be one of the most difficult things I've ever done in my life....wish me luck....

^{( My kind of poetry....for those who are interested..... )}

So, yeah, today was pretty much a good day. I am about to go to RUF, which is always uplifting for me....But I can't help the fact that I am walking around with a heavy heart. Something inside of me is off balance, and it is really spinning my entire world upside down...I'm at a loss as to what do with myself- I am hoping that hearing Les speak God's word tonight will spark something inside me and I can find the strength to make it through. I have a strange feeling that the message I am going to hear tonight will have some sort of implication on my life. I don't know though, I guess I will have to find out....I just know that something needs to happen and something needs to change....this feeling is terrible and it won't go away....

Current Mood: melancholy

So....I must admit that today has been on somewhat of the wonderful side so far....And it's only 1:30!!! We got our first Pathophysiology tests back today, and I must say, I did much better than I thought I was going to. This was the test that I took last Thursday-the one I had studied for about a week for....Anyway, we got it back today, and I made a 103!! Go figure!! I was so excited, I thought I was going to pass out....okay, maybe not that excited, but ya know - it was great...And then I went to talk to my internship advisor, Dr. Robinson, and she informed me that the trip to Australia this summer was something she strongly encouraged, and as long as nothing terrible happens between then and now, it should be a definite!! That is really exciting for me because I have tons of aunts, uncles, and cousins over there that I haven't seen in a long time. I would love to go visit them, and I would be getting credit for school too! And, to make the day even better, I stopped by another professor's office on my way to work, and he gave me a copy of a recommendation letter he had written for me - it was so nice - It almost made me want to cry....It really made me feel good about myself (I have been down on myself for the past few days), and it really made me feel like someone was noticing all the hard work and enthusiasm that I put into things...It made me feel appreciated, and that is always a good thing...Anyway, the day isn't even halfway over, and I am in such a great mood already...I just hope nothing spoils it for me.....Well, there is work to be done, so I guess I should actually do it....or the DM crossword....hmmm....

Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: Nano's on shuffle....going with the flow....

So today was not really good or bad...Just kind of blah....I went to work at 8 am, went to class at 11, went to a meeting, went to work again at 1, studied at 3, meeting again at 5, then home for more studying....damn Pharmaceutics! I did happen to see two people quite randomly today. First, I was at work, and I looked out the window and there goes Gabe, walking by on the sidewalk....random, I thought....But then it got better cause when I was leaving the pharmacy school at around 6:15, I was walking to the parking lot, and there goes Brian, driving by on the road....now if that isn't the most random thing in the world, then I don't know what is....Anyway, life is okay right now - none of my concerns have been resolved, but luckily I have enough stuff to do to keep my mind off of them - for a little while at least. I don't even know why I am expecting them to be resolved in a timely manner anyway. I know it won't happen that way - they will get resolved on their own time. Or I will just forget about them, because even the most painful things will fade with time....At least that is what I've heard. Someone told me once that the whole "forgive and forget" method doesn't really work out too well. It's really easy to forgive, because that is what is in our nature...it's not a big deal to say, hey, I forgive you. The hard part is the forgetting. Sometimes you try to forget it too soon, and that just causes problems. In other situations, you may never forget, so then what do you do? Ahhh....what a question.....has yet to be answered......don't really know if I want to know the answer to tell you the truth. I just want things in life to not be so hectic anymore. And eventually I know they will be back to normal. I know where to place my trust in this matter, and I know that things will get better. But I can't help the fact that I am the impatient, instant gratification type - it's one of many character flaws.....I think I just need to get away for a while and leave my worries behind... So in an effort to do just that, I am currently in the process of trying to find a summer internship for the pharmacy school in Australia! I have family over there, and I think it would absolutely amazing to go for the summer! Get out of Oxford, forget class and just go spend time in another country...far far away.....I know that it is a long time from now, but if everything works out, at least I will have that trip to look forward to. It would be nice, I have to admit....I guess I'll just have to see how it goes.... Anyway, I have to go study and then I have to watch Nip/Tuck at 9....again, can I repeat....damn, Pharmaceutics....

Current Mood: indifferent

An entire year has passed since I have written in this journal. What made me want to write in it again? I'm actually not sure...I think it might be the fact that I have tons of things running through my head right now, and I was in search of an outlet....so I am using this one. For the time being, my life isn't exactly rainbows and butterflies. Not even close. School is bringing me to the breaking point almost every single day, relationships that once flourished are now non-existent and some of them gone forever, and so many times I find myself looking around and wondering what the hell I am doing here. I cannot even begin to count the number of times that I have almost packed up and left Ole Miss for one reason or another. And the ironic thing about it is that I am not a quitter, but for some reason, some situations just make me want to throw in the towel...I'm not really that happy here sometimes, and because of this unhappiness I have made other people unhappy. I have been blessed with the ability to piss off the people closest to me, and because of that I am often left without those people in my life. One of these days I hope I learn my lesson because if I keep going at this rate, I won't have a soul left to comfort me when my life crumbles down....I know that everything in life happens for a reason, and I do have a specific purpose here. But I just cannot come to grips with the fact that I have hurt people. Did God really intend for me to cause pain in the lives of others, for absolutely no reason at all. I didn't do it cause I wanted to, and I didn't do it because it brought me pleasure....I can't really tell you why I did it....I sound like a four year old, but it was an accident....I don't like to be mean, and I don't like to screw up - But for some reason, I am just really good at it. So, after the fact, I am just left to deal with the consequences. Sometimes I feel like God is just yelling at me "NO, NO, NO!!! That isn't the way that things are supposed to be!!!" But for some reason, I can't hear Him....And for that, I seem to be paying the price....

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can’t find You
As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
“I’m with you”
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

Current Mood: numb

Wow - long time since I've updated my poor little journal.  I've been so extremely busy though, and it's not going to get any better until school finally gets started, and I fall into my routine again.  I realized that I haven't even written since I've been back from Gulf Shores!  The trip was wonderful by the way.  It was so nice to just sit around and not have to do anything in particular.  I've been running from place to place so much this summer that at time, I don't even feel like I've gotten a break at all - hello, real world, huh?  So, the long, relaxing days on the beach were much needed, and I was thankful that my parents arranged that little getaway for the family - oh wait, not just the familly, but the five of us, PLUS my sister's stupid boyfriend (he's such a dick) and my little bro's friend.  So there was tons of drama that came along with our travelers, but it was fun, nonetheless.  If you're really bored, you can read all about the adventures of Ashley.....but I'll warn ya, it's kinda long....

( Gulf Shores trip (in a nutshell) )

So, this week has been spent getting everything ready for the move into my apartment tomorrow.  I have pretty much everything packed up already.  That's been done for a few days which was actually a bit amazing given the fact that I NEVER get things like that done so early.  I've been making stuff for my room like crazy though.  So far I've made a message board that's gigantic (i'm using it as a headboard), 7 pillow, a set of placemats, paper mache flower bouquets, and tons of paintings....it's been fun...I can't wait to get it all in my room and see what it looks like when it's all decorated!  Tonight I have to pack up my car, cause I'm leaving pretty early tomorrow morning, and then on Saturday, my dad is coming down with all of the stuff that I can't fit into my car.  By the looks of things, he may have alot to bring down!  Then he'll have to stay to help me hang everything up and whatnot.  It's gonna be an interesting weekend.  I'm looking forward to it though, and I'm definitely looking forward to being back in Oxford.  Watch out everybody, I"m on my way!!

Woo hoo! Today I leave for a week at the beach! Yah! I don't even think I can quite express how excited I am about this. I haven't actually been to the beach and been able to go swimming in the ocean in quite some time. I mean, I went to Panama City for Spring Break, but if any of you went also, you know that it was a tad bit chilly and sometimes impossible to even lay out. But no, as long as it doesn't rain the entire time I'm there, Gulf Shores is going to be a blast! Sure, I'm going with the fam, but hey, they can be fun sometimes, right? The only part that sucks is that everyone else is bringing someone with them, but Brian can't come until Wednesday or Thursday. So that means that while my lil sis is with her boyfriend and my brother is with his friend, I'll be hanging out with the rents. Oh well, I'll make the best of it. They're actually alot more fun now that I've lived away from home and only really come back to "visit"(I think they realize that this is my last summer to even partially live at the house). So, hanging out with them won't be the agonizing experience that it used to be....I may even be looking forward to it. Anyway, we were supposed to leave five minutes ago, but, characteristically, my family is running a little behind schedule. As usual, I am already packed and ready to go, but my mom surely isn't - and don't even get me started on my sister. So now, I must sit here and wait on everyone else.....OH the torture.....
I came to the realization today that when I get home in a week, it will be less than a week before I have to turn around and go back to school. I move into my apartment on the following Friday, and I have so much stuff to do before then. I've got alot packed already, but there is just so much more stuff than there was for the dorm....I have already decided that there isn't going to be much relaxation for me after vacation. It's going to be a constant rush until I get back to Oxford. But then I can relax for a little while before Pharmacy Orientation starts on the 19th. Oh yeah, that reminds me, if anyone isn't doing anything on the 19th at around 7 p.m., you should definitely take a trip over to the Ford Center for some exciting entertainment...Okay, maybe not exciting, but amusing nonetheless...all of us nerdy Pharmacy kids will be going through a ceremony in which we will don our lovely "White Coats"....woo hoo, the introduction to the world of professionalism....I'm excited....anyway, anyone who wants to come is welcome to do so...
Anyway, I guess it's about time that I get off here and pack up my computer so I can take it with me. But, I will post again when I return. I hope everyone has a wonderful week, and I will be thinking about everyone as I lay on the beach and soak up the sun! Bye guys!! Brian, I love you, and I can't wait to see you later this week!!

Okay, so I sat down tonight with a heavy heart, and decided to recap a part of my life that has made me think alot lately.  Recent events have put me in somewhat of a sad mood, and I just felt like writing.  This entry isn't so much for anyone else as it is for me....It's kinda boring unless you know me pretty well, but if you choose to read it, then I think you may understand me a little bit better....

( Sad Life Story (only part of it though) )

Anyway, enough with all the sad stuff....TASC camp was a blast...I'll have to write about that later.  My council got second place out of fifteen, so I was definitely pumped about that.  It means I must be doing something right in my efforts as a counselor...Anyway, I leave this Saturday for a week in Gulf Shores.  I am so excited about this much-needed vacation!  Time for some sun, sand, and quality time with the fam.  And, to top it all off, Brian gets to come when school gets out and spend some time with us!  Yah!  I think that might be the part that I am most excited about.  I haven't seen him in forever, and I miss him!!  Then, after we get back, it's less than a week until I move into my apartment and get ready for school to start....Argg...I don't know if I'm ready for that yet....I don't wanna get back to all that serious business just yet.  I wanna play some more!!  But as for now, I'm about to get to bed pretty soon, but I'm planning on updating again sometime soon....Until then, Brian, I love you and I miss you, and I hope everyone has a great week!

Woo hoo!! Counselor training starts today!! I'm actually really excited about this fact after I talked to a few people that I worked with last year. All of my fave people are coming back to be counselors, and all of the ones that I wasn't too fond of aren't - Yah! (even though I could still tolerate those that I wasn't too fond of - I'm not a fan of really disliking anyone) I am a bit saddened though, because my best friend Beth is going to school in Florida, and she's stayed there for the summer. Needless to say that I am without a sidekick this year, and it won't be the same without her around...she was hilarious....but it will be fun nonetheless.
I still have to pack though, and that's what sucks. Packing for a camp isn't like packing for a vacation....you don't get to leave all of those little things like an iron or an alarm clock at home, cause guess what? the campsite sure as hell isn't gonna have all that crap...plus I have to pack up tons of craft supplies so my kiddies will have good resources when it comes to their projects..(the majority of this camp is a competition, and they'll be making things THE ENTIRE TIME) So, I guess I'm gonna have to get going if I hope to get it done anytime soon. I love procrastination...:) I mean, I don't really have to be anywhere until tonight when all of the counselors meet up for training at the hotel at 6. So, why stress about it? Right?
Anyway, on top of all that jazz, I've got family coming in today. This issue is kind of bittersweet to me, given the fact that I'll be leaving tonight. They're gonna be her in about an hour and a half, and its my cousin, her husband, and their FOUR children! And she's pregnant with the FIFTH! What makes it even more interesting is that 3 of the 4 kids are under the age of 4, and the oldest one is a freakin 15 year-old! Yah.... So, I'm a bit sad that I won't get to spend much time with them, but I am also kinda glad that I'll get to leave. My house is going to be chaotic....and to top it all off, I had to get my room and bathroom spotless, cause they're gonna be used while I'm gone! My room has suddenly turned into the Holiday Inn Express, and I'm not sure how I feel about this. You move out, and then your family acts as if it's not even your room anymore....oh well, what can I do? So anyway, I'm at least glad that I'll get to visit for a little while. It should be interesting to say the least...
Well guys, I'm gonna go for now, the pool is calling my name, and I really need to swim some laps and jog for a while to get my workout in for the day...hope nothing exciting happens in the next week, cause I will sadly be without a computer....Call me if anyone does anything worth mentioning! Love ya!! Have a great weekend/week!! Brian, I love you and I miss you!!

Current Mood: relaxed

Alright, so I saw that a few people put up new user pics, so I thought, what the hell, guess I will too. That's what boredom will do to you I guess. Right about now I should probably be in bed, but I'm not. Instead, I'm sitting in front of my damn computer, uploading pictures and printing some of them out. The more I look at these pictures, the more I miss my long hair. (for those of you who don't know, I cut my hair a few weeks ago) I mean, I love the way it looks now - it's really cute - but some of these pics have been reminding me just how long it had gotten. It's not like I shaved my head or anything, but I did get it cut pretty short - oh well, hair grows, I'll live...
So, today was another boring day in the lovely town of Chapel Hill. It was like, 98 degrees outside, so it was almost impossible to even lay out by the pool. I went out for a while, started to feel sick, and came inside. I couldn't take it at 12 in the afternoon. I went out again later though, but it was so hot that sitting outside of the pool was not an option. So I floated around for like, 2 hours, and then worked out for a while...fun stuff, huh? Told you I was boring...
This Friday I have to go to Columbia for counselor training for TASC leadership camp. We'll spend the whole weekend in a hotel, getting the information we're gonna need to make it through the week of camp, and then we're off to the 4-H campsite to spend a week with about 215+ kids. Woo hoo....after doing orientation for a month, I'm not sure if I can deal with MORE people, but it should be fun. The theme is Leadership Through the Seasons, and each day of camp is going to be a different season. I have officially been put in charge of the decorations, so if anyone has any ideas, they would be appreciated. I'm beginning to get excited about camp though-I had a great time last year, and I really loved my group, so I'm hoping that this year will be no different. This camp is one of those things that I hope I can return to summer after summer b/c it really is a great experience. I'm hoping they'll let me be a director next year. That would be ideal, although I'm not sure how busy I'll be next year and summer (i think I'm supposed to do a pharmacy internship next summer) We'll see how it all works out though.
So, this Saturday will be the official three-month anniversary of Brian and I. We met exactly 3 months ago this Saturday, and we aren't going to be able to see each other - not that 3 months is a huge milestone or anything, but it will be the first "anniversary" that we haven't been together for. Oh well, not much I can do about it...I don't even really know when I'll get to see him again actually. He's gonna come visit in Gulf Shores while I'm there, but that won't be until around August 5th or so. Until then, I'm not even positive I'm going to be able to go to Oxford to see him b/c of all the stuff that we've got going on at my house. Sad stuff....I don't even want to think about it....
Alright, I guess I'm done now....again, I've just been rambling on about nothingness, so I apologize to anyone who reads this. Again, let me confess that this is what boredom will do to you late at night...I think I'm gonna go read now - something a bit more intellectually challenging I do believe...until next time.....

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Memory - Sugarcult

Okay everybody, time to get excited!! Brian is going to be at my house tomorrow afternoon, and I know that I'm excited about it! Granted, it's only been, like, 10 days since the last time I saw him, but hey, 10 days is alot to people who are accustomed to spending every day together! After this weekend, it will be another 25 days till I get to see him again, and to me, that's a long time...That's the longest we've ever been apart...tear... Okay, okay, my apologies for the boring mushy crap. I'll quit now.
So, today wasn't much fun at all. Actually, I think it was one of the worst days I've had in a long time. You see, I had to go to the dentist today, and I must say that I absolutely hate the dentist! I had some cavities that had to be filled, and I came out of there with half of my face numb...Now, I'm not exaggerating when I say half of my face, cause I was literally numb from my lower eyelid to my bottom lip...to make it even worse, I was numb from my ear to my nose, but half of my actual nose was numb! It was bitch to have to drive 45 minutes like that...I persevered though, and as soon as I got home, I drank some tomato soup through a straw (cause I couldn't bite anything) and took a nap. I slept for most of the afternoon...(I know, I'm lazy) Anyway, after I woke up, I donned my swimsuit and went outside to the pool for a while. I swam some laps, laid around for a while, and then came inside to clean up the house in preparation for my company this weekend...Boring day, I know. Now do you see why it was so bad? I hope tomorrow proves to be better...
So, I have come to the conclusion that summer is way too short, and I think it should really be lengthened somehow. We should really look into contacting the proper authorities about this matter - I've just got so much stuff to do, and it doesn't seem like I'm going to have time to get it all done before we have to go back to school...I've got a week's worth of TASC camp to do starting next Friday, a week of vacation in the beginning of August, and then I move into my apartment on the 13th...That doesn't leave me a whole lot of time to get ready for anything...Granted, I've got a few days here and there, but for the most part, I'm going to be on the go for the rest of the summer...Goody...I'm so excited... What ever happened to the summers where all you had to do was lay around a pool and get a tan? Oh wait, we lost those as soon as we did that little thing called growing up, huh? That's it, I've decided what I want to be when I grow up...screw pharmacy, I think I'm gonna be a little kid when I grow up...can you major in that? Just kidding.... I guess growing up isn't too bad - check back with me when I'm getting old...I'm sure my tune will change by then...Anyway, enough rambling...I guess I'm gonna go to bed now...Sweet dreams to all....Brian - I love you, and I can't wait to see you tomorrow!!

Current Mood: giddy
Current Music: the sound of my cat, meowing at my mom's bedroom doo

So, I'm back in Chapel Hill now, and I must say that I think it may actually be more boring than it was the last time I was home. I got here two days ago, and all I've heard since my arrival is bad news. First of all, my mom and I had a bit of an argument as soon as I walked in the door about when Brian is coming to visit. I could have sworn that I asked her if next weekend would be okay, but she insists that I didn't. So, when I told my little brother that Brian would be coming on the 9th, my mom gave me the strangest look and acted like she didn't know anything about it. It's not that she really minds if he comes to visit then, because my entire family loves him just as much as I do, but I guess she just expected me to ask AGAIN, which I didn't. For some reason, parents always hate it when you tell them things rather than ask....what does she expect though? I've been away at school, pretty much on my own for a year, and I'm not really in the habit of asking when I want to do something....I'm just used to doing it...Note to self - make sure to at least seem like I'm asking permission when it comes to dealing with mom...Maybe it will make her feel better. Anyway, that finally blew over, after she cried because we had already gotten into a disagreement. Now everything is peachy on the parental front.
Okay, after that wonderful event, I had the pleasure of getting a phone call from a friend informing me that the mother of one of my other friends had passed away. Something happened to her heart, completely unexpectedly, and she passed away on Monday night....not good...so that put a rain cloud over my town yet again. The visitation was today and the funeral is tomorrow, but I cannot find the courage to go to either. I know that sounds awful, but I just can't go to things like that. I lost my best friend and another really good guy friend within a week's time last year, and their funerals took a toll on me. I think I have a phobia now. I've lost more people than I can count on one hand in the last 3 years, and I just haven't really ever learned how to deal with it very well. So my heart and my prayers go out to my friend Lisa, and even though I won't be there, she knows I am thinking about her.
Alrighty, what else bad has happened lately? Well, it has rained here for forever too. That seems to be the trend all around lately, and I must say that is really does suck. I want sunshine and heat, but NO, I'm getting torrential downpours and a pool in my back yard that is practically overflowing. I just wanna be able to swim in it!! But I can't because I'd probably end up getting struck by lightning if I tried! And from what my dad tells me, it's supposed to be like this for the rest of the week. Argg....On a brighter note though, my dad also told me that when it does clear up, we're gonna get the boat out of the shed and get it cleaned up and ready for the lake! Yah!! That's really exciting for me, cause I've been dying to go to the lake all summer! Woo hoo!
So, I went to see Spiderman 2 today with my dad, my little sister, and my little brother. It was fun. The movie was good although I wouldn't say it was my favorite or anything. Worth seeing though. After the movie we met my mom in Cool Springs for dinner...that was nice too...a good family outing. The agenda looks somewhat blank for tomorrow though. I think I'm gonna go up to MTSU and visit my old roomie Samantha. She has an apartment up there now, and she's been begging me to come stay with her ever since she left Ole Miss after Christmas. Other than doing that, I have absolutely nothing to do tomorrow. I think I may make more pillows for my bedroom in the apartment this fall. I've become somewhat domestic since I've been home, and pillow-making sounds like it could be fun.....or, I could just sleep....we'll see....

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Back to California - Sugarcult

So, I know I don't really post very often, but I must say that I'm gonna give a thorough update as to what I've been doing lately. The majority of my time has been occupied by the wonderful excitement of freshman orientation sessions. As of today, we only have 2 more freshman sessions and 1 more transfer session until orientation is over!! Granted, we have one last session in August, but that one will be run a little bit differently than the ones we've done during June. I'm a bit torn as to how I feel about orientation almost being over. I am both sad and happy at the same time. I guess a bit of relief is thrown in there too! I'm glad that I get to go home for a while. I'm beginning to miss my family a bit. I really missed my dad today cause of Father's Day and all, and I just think that I'll be happy to be home again. I'm sad too though, cause the end means that I have to move out of Northgate and away from all of the new friends that I have become so close with over the past months. We've all been together for an entire semester and then during the summer, and it's gonna be weird to not see these people on a pretty regular basis anymore. I'm gonna miss them. Some of these leaders have become my best friends, and I don't know what I would do without them. Even worse, after next Tuesday when I go home, I am only going to get to see Brian a maximum of 3 times, maybe, during the entire month of July. That is going to be quite the adjustment. Since he has been up here for summer school, I have gotten to see him every single day, and it has been absolutlely fabulous. I love being with him all the time. We've never spent more than 10 days apart, and I am predicting that only one weekend will be spent together during all of July, and quite frankly - that sucks. I wish I could just stay with him here in Oxford or maybe that he could come visit me in TN more often during the month, but it isn't possible. I have to work a camp right in the middle of the month, and then my family is going to Gulf Shores at the end of the month, so that doesn't leave much time at all. He's going to visit me in Gulf Shores though after his classes are over, and we're gonna hang out on the beach! I'm really excited about that! For one, I haven't been on a real vacation in forever, and two, my baby gets to come spend it with me. What a perfect scenario!
Speaking of my baby, let me just let everyone know how wonderful life with him has been lately. A few days ago was our 2 month anniversary, and Brian did the sweetest things for me. I hadn't seen him all day long, and he came over to my apartment to visit me like he always does. Well, he opens the door to come in, and he's got so many presents for me - it was unreal! He brought me a whole bunch of pink roses (which were gorgeous!), the Blue Crush DVD, this adorable card, and a bunch of Reeses and a case of Diet Mt. Dew (my fav candy and drink) He was so thoughtful, and I loved every minute of it! He's the greatest boyfriend in the world, and I am so glad that he is MINE! I'm just a lucky gal....He's so great to me, and I love it. I couldn't ask for anyone better than him, and I know that we're gonna be together for a long time.
So, since it is almost midnight, and I have to be up at 6 in the morning for the second day of this orientation session, I guess I'm gonna go to sleep! I promise to keep you posted on what's up in the wonderful world of Ashley! I know you all care so much! Love ya bunches! Talk to ya later!!

Current Mood: content
Current Music: none - seems to be the trend lately

You know what I really hate? People who do random shit for no reason. I cannot stand randomness....in any form or fashion....Why in the world do people do things out of the blue, without any form of explanation whatsoever? I just don't really understand...Why do people get random visits or random calls from people that they never talk to anymore? Someone please explain it to me...maybe it won't bug me as badly if I knew why people did it....Gabriel, you seem to be quite the thinker...maybe you know the answer...
I also really hate know-it-alls...they really bother me. Even if you know you are right about something, don't make everyone else feel stupid about being wrong. That is such a big pet peeve of mine. Please do not make me feel like an idiot just cause I am confused about something....I respond so much better to constructive criticism....
On a lighter note, today was a pretty good day. The orientation staff had a water balloon fight after debriefing today. (debriefing is our "bitch" session that always takes place after each orientation session) I got completely soaked! It was so much fun!! Orientation has been a blast so far. It's really stressful at times, but it can be fun too. I've met so many awesome people, and I'm excited about knowing so many of these freshman next year. I hope that I'll be of help to them when they come in the fall....I dunno....I love my job....
Well, I guess I'm gonna go now. Time to read a book that I bought a few days ago. It's called Bergdorf Blondes, and it's hilarious. It is all about this rich Manhattan socialite who acts like she's about four years old. It's really funny...Anyway, I'll try to update again later sometime...Have a good week...

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So today was so much fun!! My little sis and I went on a shopping spree for a few hours and had a blast! I never really knew how much we have in common. She's going to be 15 on Tuesday, and I'm amazed at how grown-up she acts sometimes...it's weird...my little sister isn't really that little anymore. She has definitely surpassed me in the height department by a few inches, not to mention the fact that she is super skinny. The child wears a size 00. I think I completely skipped that size!! We look different in many ways, but you can definitely tell we're sisters...we both picked up alot of the crazy personality traits of our parents - like my dad's insane sense of sarcasm that can be border-line annoying at times - yeah, we both got that! Anyway, back to the matter at hand, we had a great time together today. We went to Old Navy and then to the mall, and we goofed around and I got clothes for the summer while she picked out birthday presents...can I mention the fact that I absolutely HATE anything khaki at the moment. For orientation we have to wear khaki shorts/skirts/etc...with our red polo shirts, and I had the hardest time finding khaki shorts that I actually liked! So khaki can kiss my ass....
Anyway, Katie (my sis) gets her permit on Tuesday, and I must say that I am a bit scared to knoww that she will be on the road. I love my scatter-brained sister, but that's what she is...a scatter-brain at times. I can just see her getting into a wreck right now...Daddy isn't letting her get a nice car when she first starts driving, so that's good. I guess he learned with me when I wrecked my Camaro 3 months after getting my license! Yeah, I totalled it....oops....So my parents are just going to get my sis a somewhat crappy car that won't really be missed if she wrecks it. She'll get a new car when she graduates though, like I did, as long as she keeps her grades up....so that's exciting...
Ummm...I go back, to Oxford tomorrow....I'm glad. My house is getting hectic. The 4 1/2 hour drive is gonna suck though, but I'll make it. I'm ready to see all of my Orientation Leader buddies. I'm also ready to see BRIAN!!! I think that might be what I'm the most excited about. I miss him so much, and it killed me to know that I wasn't with him on his birthday today...but I do know that he got to spend time with Patrick and Matt, so that's good. They all went to see Shrek 2 and he liked it. I saw it a few days ago with my little sis and bro, and I loved it! I thought is was so funny. I'm gonna have to buy it when it comes out on video. Oh yeah, and Matt and Patrick also gave Brian the book "Sex for Dummies"...Okay guys....what's that all about??? Lol...Funny present....
Alrighty, I guess I'm done talking about absolutley nothing of any importance. I'm gonna finish packing up my car, and then I'm going to get to bed...I love everyone...and I hope that you all have a wonderful Memorial Day weekend!! Woo Hoo for summertime!! Gotta love it!!

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Hey Kids! I know it's been a while since my last post, but I've been a busy little bee lately trying to get ready for my trip back to Oxford. Since today is technically Saturday, I will be traveling back to the wonderful world of Ole Miss tomorrow in preparation for my job as an orientation leader this summer. Kinda not sure how I feel about it as of yet. I mean, I live for all of this stuff - the whole, get up in front of a bunch of people and act silly and lead 'em around - I love it...but I always get kinda scared about each new task and each new bunch of people. We have intensive training for the first few days (we don't really even start until Wednesday) and I should be so much more prepared after I actually learn exactly how things are going to go. I know I'll be okay though....
On a much more exciting note, today is Brian's birthday! Woo Hoo!! Kinda sad that I'm not in Metairie to share it with him, but I have some GREAT news!! Brian is going to be in Oxford the entire time I am there!!! I am so happy!!! Granted, he's stuck taking summer classes all summer, which sucks for him, but at least we get to spend time together. We were all worried about not seeing each other all summer, and so far, the longest we've had to be apart has been a whole 10 days! Go figure...it's funny how things end up working out to your advantage when you just stop worrying about them...As soon as we made peace with the idea of a long distance relationship for the summer, look what happens!! Now we get to see each other all the time, and he's staying in an apartment, so in July when I'm done with orientation, I can come stay with him for the weekends! I know ya'll care so much....hey, give me a break, I'm excited!! The love of my life, so close all the time....it doesn't get much better than that....
So, not much else has been going on here in the lovely town of Chapel Hill....went to a party last weekend, got unimaginably shitty off of beer and Hennessy (sp) Yeah, I drank way too much...it got to the point where Brian was laughing at me cause I was making no sense....none whatsoever....So, on that note, Ash is calling it quits on the drinking for a while. I NEVER want to feel like that again...
Okay guys, it's 2 in the morning, my little sis and I are getting up early to go shopping, and I need some sleep....So, I'm gonna hit the hay...haha....funny stuff....anyway, talk to ya later!! Have a great weekend!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRIAN!! I LOVE YOU!!!

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